happyeverafterso I love him.and cry my eyes out.in silence.no one will ever see the tears.and I'm just dying.from my fears.I just don't want to be alone.instead of this.with him.at home.I'm restless.searching for the phone.and the sound of it is so cold.I should get some sleep.shadows creeping into my brain.try to keep them out.but it won't work.'cause I'm too weak.without him.I loose my mind.I don't wanna be that kind.but I'm just in too deep in to it all. I'll never be the same again. not at all.simply because "just the thought of you gives me the strength to go on".